It's Okay To Change My Mind

River bank, c.1830, Joseph Mallord William Turner (1775-1851)

The more I write, the more I know I need more time.

It becomes clear to me that I need more time than others in almost everything I do.

I need more time to warm up. I need more to cool down. I need more time to know where I want to go, and more time to know where I don’t want to go. I need more time to try. I need more time to fail. I need more time to learn a simple concept that might only take a while for others to grasp. I need more time to be alone. I need more time to go for a random walk in the city. I need more time to figure out what I want to do. I need more time to find my rhythm. I need more time to think about how to stop my overthinking. I need more time to let things go. I need more time to find my place in this world. I need more time to accept who I am.

When it comes to writing, I need more time to write.

I need the time to be away from the computer. I need the time to read. I need the time not to read. I need the time to ponder, explore, reflect, and understand what’s inside my head. It’s important to add. But it’s more important to subtract. What I need is to subtract the unnecessary complexity in my work.

I didn’t think too much about why I would publish every once a week when I first started writing here three years ago. I just jumped straight into the water.

It’s time for change.

The biggest lesson in my writing is that it’s okay to change my mind as I grow.

I’m going to publish every other Friday from this point onward. Let’s see what will happen if I double my time to work on each piece.

My goal is to keep writing for as long as I can manage to write. This is a single-player game. This is a journey to become who I truly am. This is a journey to remove anything that I don’t need in life. This is a sacred journey to my soul. I am going to take it slow. And I’m glad you are here with me.

See you in two weeks.